"Hi, I know you're not there. I just, uh... wanted to leave you a message. I know we could've planned to meet and discuss it together before you had to go back and start working again, but I... uhm... I didn't really have the courage to talk to you directly about it. I've noticed more and more lately how little we have talked when we are together, and I'm sorry for ruining things in more than one occasion. I didn't mean to. I just... I just get very... nervous when talking with you. It doesn't feel natural anymore. It's like it's not easy to find the words, and I end up thinking how I could respond better to this question you ask, or how I could add something meaningful to the conversation, when what you needed in this moment was someone to just listen to you for once. I didn't want to give you more troubles than you deal with already, but I ended up becoming a bother each time we tried talking again. I'm sorry for that. If anything I would rather see your smile again and again, or have you joke and not look away while thinking 'Why does it have to be difficult to talk now, we shouldn't have these kinds of problems'. At least that's the look that I see on your face when I look at you after I keep making the same mistake again and again. I really can't help it, you know? I end up overthinking things, then try to make things work in a certain way, and when I see that I might be doing wrong I end up reacting badly, thinking it can fix everything when it just creates more misunderstanding. I'm so bad at being direct... because I don't know how you would have reacted. I keep staring at you and my heart starts beating faster, I only see your face while the world disappears around us. I see your mouth moving, but I don't hear words, I just see your lips opening and closing, opening and closing, and I start to feel weird. I end up swallowing words, and reacting badly against you when this sensation keeps overwhelming me, because I can't seem to be able to control it. And we're getting so distant now... you haven't sent me any message in these days, you used to always find the time to send me links of this article, or this silly image, or movies to watch, and so forth... but now... now I see you barely online, now I barely hear your voice... and I don't get to look at you anymore. And... I'm sorry... I'm sorry for everything... I didn't want to make things difficult between us... I don't want you to think I did it on purpose, I just can't control it... I ended up falling in love with you, and I need you to know that I miss you... I miss hearing from you... I miss looking into your eyes staring into mine, I miss when you hugged me each time we met, no matter how little time has passed, I miss your hand on my shoulder, each time someone was to bump into me or a car seemed to steer to close, I miss turning my head and looking at your smile reassuring me... I need you to understand that I love you, that I don't want to lose you... ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ "H-Hey... No... No, it's... No, don't say that... I wasn't sleeping, don't worry... I'm sorry... Yes... Yes, I'm alright, I'm happy. I've been sobbing all day and my voice is a bit tired, but I'm alright... I feel happy hearing from you. No, don't say that, stop apologizing, you couldn't have noticed, you shouldn't... I should have been direct with you as soon as I noticed, instead I behaved like an idiot. Yes. Haha, yes. Hey, don't get too confident now, haha. Yes, that's right. No, I'm not crying... I'm... just happy, you know? I... Oh... I love you too... I love you so much... sorry... I wasn't expecting this... sorry, I'll stop crying in a moment..." ... ... ".. I didn't know... I never noticed you were also thinking about me... I'm sorry... I should have spoken right away, I'm so sorry. Yes, I love you too. Yes, I'll wait for you outside, don't drive too fast, alright?" ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ "Hey, it's me. Hmh, I see. Haha, right today? She never changes. Yes. Well, you could ask for an increase, couldn't you? Haha, I know, sorry. Yes. No, it wasn't for that, I wanted to hear from you. It's been a wonderful time so far, and I thought that it would be nice to switch my sleeping hours to match yours. No, don't worry about that, I'll manage... Seriously, don't worry about it, that's not the issue here. I wouldn't be able to cope if I couldn't hear you properly. I'm not clingy, be appreciative! Yes... Aw... I know, I'm happy. I really miss you too. I found the flowers outside today, it was a sweet thought. I'll try to make them last along the ones already here. Remember when I ran toward you and we fell right beside those flowers? You did all you could to not make them wither, and now they're still healthy, I'm glad. Yes, I'll do my best. I love you. Hmm, I can kiss you better. Heh, alright, that was good. Yes... really good... Sorry, it's because of your voice... I love hearing it... it's so reassuring, you know? Hmm... yes... yes, that was... I'm caressing myself. I can't help it, when I'd like you to do it but you're not here. Hmm... I see... Oh... Really? Haha... sorry, it's just... I wonder if it's because of me that you turned up like this, you were so distant and reserved before... hmmm, keep stroking... yes... I feel good too... ... ... ..ohh, take it out for me, please. My legs are already spread... I soiled the chair so much, because you've made me so wet... my clit is getting swollen... Hm-hm... I'll rub one finger, yes... ohhh... you want me to pull the hood back? Yes... I'll continue... Ohhhh... it feels really good. Hmm, your hands on me felt as good as this... yes, ohh... yes, take them down... I want you to start moving your hand... ohhh, yes.... I love hearing you moaning... you make me feel so good... yes, I'm making these noise, it's because I'm so wet... I think I'm gonna come... ohh yes, yes, faster please... ahhh... ahh... hmmm, *smooch*, you make me so happy. Keep stroking please. I loved feeling your glans right on my pussy... I remember how you pressed it hard onto my clit, then let it slide back and forth to get even more wet... your precum was already so hot... I remember how you pulled my nipple closer to you to have me see what you were doing, and then you suddenly kissed me and... entered inside... yes... ohhh, yes, I inserted my fingers. I'm making them go in a bit, then back outside, then further in... yes... like you did to me... I think I might come again... ohhh... ohhh, yes.... hmm, I can't wait anymore... yes, yes please... I wish I could stroke it myself... I wish I could have your cum right now in me... it was so hot, just thinking about how it filled me these days is... ohhh... yes, stroke faster, yes, ohh, I love hearing you moan, continue, yes, I'm gonna do it too, yes, yes... I want to hear you cum, please, stroke faster, stroke harder, think of my pussy, how tight it was when you filled it with your cock... I want to suck it so hard, I want to drink it all... it's mine and mine alone... ohhh... fuck yes, yes... don't stop, please cum, cum for me please, I'm gonna come too... ohhh.... Hmmm... I'm glad I could make you happy today... yes, I want to stay like this a few more minutes, I love hearing your breath along mine... Thank you for being with me, I'm happy we can still hear each other every day, even with the distance... let's clean each other and sleep together. Hehe, stupid... *smooch*... thank you."